Drowning In Bitterness - (4) The Cut
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The Cut
She woke up to the phone vibrating the next morning at 09:03.
Matt: Don’t panic. But it’s you. Everyone knows it.
She opened the feed the way one lifts the sheet off a corpse. Vane’s post was at the top. It was spotless. It looked professional.
A sharp title and a thesis. The certainty of it gave her chills.
On Reviewers Who Confuse Cruelty With Voice.
Critique matters. Standards matter.
But cruelty is not honesty. Cruelty is acting.
She scrolled.
Scrolled.
And there she was.
Not word for word, but it was her. Same bite. Same rhythm. He had only polished it, made it hit harder.
Her rusty faucet-metaphor returned. Shinier, more toxic.
Then came the notes. They were calm. They were almost kind. As if he were helping her. See how she uses metaphors to hide contempt. See the hashtags. She is begging the tribe for attention. See the threats. Bad faith arguments.
She scrolled further. One sentence knocked the wind out of her: People who build identity by tearing down others panic when the target does not bleed.
She looked for her name. It wasn’t there. He didn’t say you. He said this type of person. She was a category. Like an insect in a jar without a name-tag.
The comment section wasn’t angry. They were happy.
This is true.
She is thirsting for attention.
The hashtags killed me.
I used to follow one like her. It was exhausting.
Someone posted a picture of her old message. They circled the hashtags in red. “Guess who,” they wrote.
A sound came from her throat. The sound you make when you understand you are the joke.
She wanted to reply. Wanted to write herself innocent.
But replying would confirm it. It would pin her name to the insect.
The trap was set. Every exit was a confession.
Delete the post? Too late.
Apologize? They would pick her apart.
Snap back? Then she was just content.
She refreshed the page. The numbers rose. No one cheered. They just watched.
A new message came.
From Vane.
Her pulse jumped. It hurt.
Vane: What do you have when you’re not reacting?
That was all.
A scalpel. Clean and cold.
Her fingers trembled over the keyboard. She wanted to write Go to hell.
But beneath the anger she was naked. Don’t leave me alone with myself.
She did nothing.